A lost love I never had

His crooked smile warms me,

but he doesn’t love me.

I make my bed, brush my teeth,

wash the dishes, and do my homework,

but he doesn’t love me.

I call just to say hello,

he thinks it’s cute,

but he doesn’t love me.

I give him my heart,

which he demolished with his unkept promises,

And he still doesn’t love me.

He makes my heart feel like a little puppy,

who’s severed body sits crushed under a bus,

because he doesn’t love me.

I try to please him with my intelligence

but he doesn’t love me.

Mother already knows his pain,

and tries to deflect his laser,

but it penetrates us both.

He never loved me.

I cry at night because I’m not good enough.

I punish myself because I’m not perfect.

Daddy tell me what to do so you’ll love me more.

Show me how to be the daughter you always wanted.

Show me how to make you smile.

I want to see that smile again,

the one you use when you’re proud,

the one you hide under that frown.

Show that smile, that crooked smile,

that warms me so,

that makes me feel like you really love me.

The smile that brightens my day,

and keeps my heart beating.

Daddy, show me that you love me,

give me a reason to live another day.

Ecclesiastics 3

There is a time and a season

for every activity under heaven

But when will it be my time to shine

my time to be pretty

my time to be happy

When will I love

when will I be loved

Time to be born, a time to die

Here I am, here I stand

waiting for time to end

A time to weep and a time to laugh

All I do is weep

can't even fake a laugh

A time to be silent, A time to speak

Silent cries scream for something more

A time to love and A time to hate

Surrounded by hate

when all I want is to love

Love like no other

When will it be my time

my time for joy

for happiness

for bliss

for the eternal sunrise.

I Deserve Better

You almost caught me

you almost did

but I stayed strong

and fought through the pain

You said you loved me

and I did the same

but honey all we do is complain

I could have fell

way deep into your lies

but I found a way to get by

part of me still wants you here

but the rest of me knows you don't care

so don't pick up the phone

or write me a letter

I liked it better when we didn't know one another

so keep your dreams

and sappy love letters

because I finally know I deserve someone better

The Hunter and The Prey

He's missing in action

Disappeared on spot

No where to be found

I can feel him here

I can smell his scent

I know he's somewhere watching

Hiding 'til the time is right

To grab his prey

And never let go

To take her to a place

Far beyond the unknown

He waits for his chance

To absorb her in

To release his passion

Like a hundred caged men

I know he's here

I know what he's thinking

His body screams

Come to me

Let me in

Be mine

Tension increases

He can no longer hold back

He pounces and catches

What looks to be a prey

But as quick as he hunted

He became the hunted

Now he runs

Now he hides

Waiting for her to pounce

To breath him in

To release her passion

Women of God

Women, you are beautiful,
adorned with precious jewels,
and blessed with flowing hair;
but your beauty comes from within;
from the words of encouragement
to the silent hug of endearment.
True beauty comes from the heart;
the kind gentle spirit
only gifted by the Holy Spirit.
So ladies don't conform
or follow the rules of this world,
for you were known since birth
and are continuously blessed.
God created you for much more
than pretty lashes and straight hair.
You were deigned for greatness
something more than baby makin'.
So listen to these words and be encouraged.
I love you and wish you only the best.
I'd catch your tears and heal your wounds
because you're too pretty to be insecure.
So let these words rest on your heart
because I've loved you from the start;
and I won't let you think otherwise
cuz I'll always be there holding your heart.

Instructions for Me

Take my hand and hold it tight.
Grab my waist and never let go.
Don't let me fall or stray too far.
Don't make me cry but smile all the time.
Be my hero and protect me while I sleep.
Be my friend and listen when I speak.
Show me you care and take me seriously.
Show me your soul, from the inside out
Make me love you and never regret it.
Love me openly and always mean it.

Heaven Bound

It's okay to cry
It's okay to be angry
just not all the time.
It's okay to play a joke
It's okay to poke
but not all the time.
I need a break
I need a rest
from the hate
from the anger
Let me breathe for a sec
Let me be me
to love
to laugh
to dance
to read
to praise God,
if you please.
It's okay if you don't agree
It's okay if you don't believe
you can join or step aside
cause I'm heaven bound.